Day 142

In my haste to get going this morning, I left the house without completing the practices that ground me.

You see, I was getting a ride to pick a car that a friend loaned me to take myself to see the orthopedic surgeon, and I didn’t want to be late. Then, when I got to the surgeon’s office, everyone was rushing around because the schedule was overbooked. At the hospital, they wanted to get me in quickly, because they had to be sure I was registered and on the schedule for surgery on Tuesday (details in tomorrow’s post). Then, I took the car back to my friend at work, and she quickly ran me up the hill and dropped me off. When I got inside, I started making phone calls to find a physical therapist who would take my insurance plan, and then talked to the doctor’s office to get them to fax the order. It’s important that the order got faxed today so that the physical therapist could get the authorization to treat me, so that the surgeon can refer me to them on Wednesday after my surgery on Tuesday. Once that was complete, I had a phone call with a friend who lives in the UK.

And breathe…

By the time the activities of the morning were complete, I was exhausted. I had started the day out without taking the time to do the things that I know keep me centered and at Peace. As a result, I got caught up in the “swirl”, and before I even realized it, I was a bit on edge and getting anxious.

What’s important about sharing all of this with you is to illustrate how easy it is to fall out of step with the practices that bring us to Peace. On a day when my regular practices would serve me well, I let them slip. And, in turn, I became slippery.

Fortunately, I didn’t stay there the whole day. When I realized what was happening, I took a moment and took several deep breaths and asked myself what I needed to return to Peace within. I rested a bit, and as I awakened, I was able to reconnect to my center, take some slow, deep breaths, and begin the day again. A bit later, I put out a notice about a meeting for Peace that I’m organizing for Monday evening, the 15th. I also took Chandler out for a short walk, which helped us both.

I am not always calm, relaxed and at Peace. However, I do know the things to do in order for me to recover to Peace. And, I am aware that I am at choice. Every day and every moment, I can choose to be in the energy of Peace and Peaceful action. Or, I can choose edginess and angst. For me, Peace is spacious, kind and unfettered, which makes me able to be in presence to myself and others.

When and how do you let go of the practices that are healthy and balancing for you? What makes you notice that you are not a Peace?How do you recover?