Day 96

I awakened this morning with a heavy heart – thinking about what the next step is for taking care of my knee, and truly wishing I could just blink and have it be fine again.

Unfortunately, that is not the case. I can still feel instability in my knee, and do not feel able to be walking long distances without knowing what is wrong.

Fortunately, I have many ways of taking care of my heavy heartedness, like chanting and meditation, both of which I used this morning. By acknowledging the feelings and being with them, they flow through me, which almost always makes me feel better.

And, when I am willing to walk through my feelings, I never have to experience them in the same way again. Even if the same issue arises, I experience it differently because I have been through it before.

In the late afternoon, I went to a meeting at a friend’s house. My friend is recovering from spinal surgery, which has her pretty much home bound for the time being. There were twelve people there, and we sat outside in the garden sharing with one another in community, love and support of someone we all care about.

After our formal gathering, several of us hung around and told stories that actually had many of us (myself included) laughing out loud. It was really lovely to feel the levity and the true sense of community surrounding our friend.

This metal peace sign garden stake was in my friend’s yard, and I found myself smiling broadly when I saw it…knowing the photo I took of it would be the picture for my post tonight.

As I complete this day, I am grateful to be able to experience so many feelings in one day. I am grateful to know that I can choose to take care of myself, with healthy actions. I am grateful for the opportunity to reach out and show up for a friend who needs help. And, I am grateful for the Peace I feel in my heart.